Float On...Float Onnnn

Okay, I know. I haven't been wanting to write lately mainly because the poison they have been pumping into me has been taking its toll. I've been really tired. Nausea finally won last week when I had no choice but to vomit. I hate throwing up. I had no choice because for some reason me and Sonic don't get along. At least the one in Cheviot doesn't. Never had any issues with the Sonic in Union, KY.

I've been dealing with neuropathy in my feet and my thumb/index fingers on both hands. I'm dropping shit like spoilers. I've never been this clumsy. Gets to be aggravating when you work in a field that requires some form of precision.

I finally see a light at the end of the tunnel. So I'm scheduled to end chemotherapy on August 20th and surgery is scheduled for September 18th. This shit is almost over. After these 12 weeks are up, I get a break and then start the bi-weekly treatments. I only have 4 of those before I'm off one month to allow my body to recover from the poison that has been ravaging my body and senses.

Surgery. Bi-lateral mastectomy. Yeah, it means what you think it means. I'm getting rid of the girls. The breasts are leaving. No more boobies. Why would I keep something that tried to kill me? Even though the uninvited guest has been evicted, it will have no place to go to squat or loiter. My chesitcles will be nothing but a canvas for a tattoo after this. I have ideas of what I want. The problems that arise...Who will be the artist? Where will I get it done? When? Doesn't matter really. It's going to be expensive, and probably gonna hurt since I won't have any cushion for the needles. I'm not concerned so much about having boobies anymore. I'm going on 48 years old. I'm not feeding anyone anytime soon. They're not needed for recreational purposes any longer. Hell, I'm tired of hearing 'You only need a handful'. Well I won't even have a handful. I'll have a beautiful work of art commemorating where the squatter was and that I survived. I survived. I'm claiming my victory right now.

I am a survivor!!! ALLL the glory be to God for it!!!!